In Continuum.

Love is Watching Someone Die

There are three kinds of songs that get stuck in your head like the oil from fried chicken wings to your fingers.The good songs,or anything by John Mayer or Coldplay.There are the hoorendously bad songs,or anything by Click Five,Simple Plan,boyband stuff.Then there are the rare ones,the ones with lyrics that catches something in your heart as it goes past your mind."What Sarah Said" is one of those songs,and i knew the moment i heard it that it is going to mean a whole lot more than just THE song with a...well,let's just say the name is rather familiar.

Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die...?

When i first saw the name of this song i went online and did a search on it.Partly because Deathcab for Cutie is a fabulous band,and the other reason was purely out of curiosity,just what the hell did Sarah say?It turned out that Sarah said "Love is watching someone die".

It didnt make sense at first,to be totally honest.However,i did have this strange feeling that it had a meaning behind it,so profound that when i realise what the hell it actually means,it is going to make a deep impact on my train of thoughts sending it sailing off the railroad.However,i couldnt crack the nut back then.I just couldnt figure out how is it possible that love can be watching someone else die.The idea to me,was just impenetrable.It is as if this Sarah is trying to make the act of murder justified somehow,like the joy of seeing somebody die right in front of you is somehow an act of selfless love.It is,if you want to think it that way,but i knew in my guts that it had more meaning to it.

I consulted a lot of people on that subject,concerning the meaning behind the phrase.I recieved a lot of ideas and comments that didnt exactly fit the song.I mean,they made sense one way or another,but it just didnt feel RIGHT,at all.So i consulted Valerie,and upon reading the lyrics she gave me an answer,which to me was,i think,the right answer to the puzzlement.

Her interpretation,which i deem fit,is that the reason why love is watching someone die is because there is so much love for that other person,that you are unwilling to see him/her weep for your death,but rather see her die and weep for her instead.

I love that interpretation of that phrase,and suddenly it all made perfect sense.I remember reading the lyrics to the song again,cursing to myself and then at this Sarah,whoever she is,how she came up with such a brilliant line.

It is true isnt it,what Sarah said.It is a different point of view on the subject of love,something which we've been asked a dozen times but never obtaining a true answer.I mean,you read in magazines,people interviewed on the streets as to the true definition of love on Valentine's Day when couples are happy,joyous and fresh out of a cheap hotel.The common answers always include the mystery of love,how it is always an unknown factor in human life.How it is a feeling and can never be truly answered,or defined.Or the really stupid ones,"I dont know".

I like the idea of it,however romanticized it might be.It seems like the ultimate act of selflessness,in a way.Then you start to wonder if anybody is truly willing to make that sort of sacrifise,if given a choice.You die,or i die.It's a fifty-fifty choice,what is it going to be?What is it going to be?

Couples are joined to be broken up.Like how we cannot live life by denying it,we cannot live life also,by denying death.It is inevitable,it is this looming dark cloud in the distance and you are sure the rain is going to pour in a couple of years' time.A couple meet,a couple kisses.A couple live,a couple marries.A couple grows,a couple older.Then before anybody expects it,somebody must go first.Somebody always goes first.Who is it going to be?Who is it going to be?

If given a choice,are we readily equipped to make that choice,as to who dies first?When met with such obligations,when we are on the edge of such choices,are we ever going to take love into consideration.They say that love is the most giving,most selfless thing in the world.But it is not,if you think about it.In truth,how selfish this selflessness really is.How dictating this act of giving really is.Are we going to forsake those truth in ourselves,and make that choice.To die later,so that you wont need to see me die at all?Would you be sad,would you be depressed?

Would you be angry if i died?

Love is watching someone die,
For i'd rather live my life
Knowing that you were in my arms when you went,
Than to know that my own blood drenched your dress...