Cleopatra and Me
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Cleopatra and Me
People have the right to fly
Will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say,"Move along."
Their minds say,"Got your heart."
Let's move it along...
I remember what went through my head,only a little more than a year ago when i was at the airport,saying goodbye to my Secondary School buddy:Nothing.It was just blank,as i couldnt think of a possible emotion for that particular situation.I remember sitting on the MRT,as it made its way down the tracks.The scenary outside speeding by,all was a blur.Like the way the memories we shared,flashing by all so fast.He was about to leave Singapore for his studies,leaving the lot of us behind.
It's inevitable i guess,to leave old relationships to pursue your dreams,career,to get to your own destinations in life.But this time it was a little different than before.Usually,it's not hard to move on.It is not easy to just close your eyes,count to five,let your breath out and say,"I am going to move on now." and just take off.It is what you leave behind that makes up the burden of flight,and sometimes it weighs down on you so hard,you almost feel it inside as well.
This time it wasnt the memories that we shared,or rather lack thereof.How much i regret not knowing somebody,perhaps a little better after so long.It is always before one's departure,when you realise that maybe you shouldve spent a little more time with somebody,or said something you never got the chance to say,or done something a long time ago.It's funny how we've known each other for a little over a year and still remained as acquaintances,only until recently when she got her hands on a webcam.Funny,isnt it.
She's leaving in February,to sunny O'Australia;To the outbacks.Wonder how it is going to be like alone there,starting all over.She's so not like my sister,who is also a Leo.My sister's absolutely petrified to even head to town alone.All right,fine.That's over-doing it isnt it?My sister can never fully survive on her own.She needs a shepherd to guide her way step by step,and she likes to feel secure and safe.But here we have,this friend of mine.All she asks for is a personal toilet and phone calls home.To that,i take off my hat.
It's not the fact that she's leaving,really.But the fact that i never got to know her better,or made it an effort to do so in the first place.I feel happy for her,i really do.It's admirable for somebody to pursue their own dreams,as gutsy as herself.And as for me,am i willing to take on the same road?Am i gutsy enough as well,to chase after my dreams?Dont you just hate insecurity,how it bugs all Cancerians im sure.Being insecured about being insecured,how strange?
Wish i had known you better,my queen.;)
Halloween,2004.
People have the right to fly
Will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say,"Move along."
Their minds say,"Got your heart."
Let's move it along...
I remember what went through my head,only a little more than a year ago when i was at the airport,saying goodbye to my Secondary School buddy:Nothing.It was just blank,as i couldnt think of a possible emotion for that particular situation.I remember sitting on the MRT,as it made its way down the tracks.The scenary outside speeding by,all was a blur.Like the way the memories we shared,flashing by all so fast.He was about to leave Singapore for his studies,leaving the lot of us behind.
It's inevitable i guess,to leave old relationships to pursue your dreams,career,to get to your own destinations in life.But this time it was a little different than before.Usually,it's not hard to move on.It is not easy to just close your eyes,count to five,let your breath out and say,"I am going to move on now." and just take off.It is what you leave behind that makes up the burden of flight,and sometimes it weighs down on you so hard,you almost feel it inside as well.
This time it wasnt the memories that we shared,or rather lack thereof.How much i regret not knowing somebody,perhaps a little better after so long.It is always before one's departure,when you realise that maybe you shouldve spent a little more time with somebody,or said something you never got the chance to say,or done something a long time ago.It's funny how we've known each other for a little over a year and still remained as acquaintances,only until recently when she got her hands on a webcam.Funny,isnt it.
She's leaving in February,to sunny O'Australia;To the outbacks.Wonder how it is going to be like alone there,starting all over.She's so not like my sister,who is also a Leo.My sister's absolutely petrified to even head to town alone.All right,fine.That's over-doing it isnt it?My sister can never fully survive on her own.She needs a shepherd to guide her way step by step,and she likes to feel secure and safe.But here we have,this friend of mine.All she asks for is a personal toilet and phone calls home.To that,i take off my hat.
It's not the fact that she's leaving,really.But the fact that i never got to know her better,or made it an effort to do so in the first place.I feel happy for her,i really do.It's admirable for somebody to pursue their own dreams,as gutsy as herself.And as for me,am i willing to take on the same road?Am i gutsy enough as well,to chase after my dreams?Dont you just hate insecurity,how it bugs all Cancerians im sure.Being insecured about being insecured,how strange?
Wish i had known you better,my queen.;)
Halloween,2004.
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