In Continuum.

Consumed

I am being consumed.

This strange flu is eating me up from the inside,invading my joints and my state of mind.I swear,that sick feeling from back in BMTC is back to haunt me,their last hoorah.I remember that feeling very well,that drowning waves of nausea,creeping up the back of your head and weighing everything down.I dropped off at the bus stop near my home,and immediately that feeling struck me.I was off balance then,and the world was spinning round and round.It was getting to me,eating me up.The same feeling i felt during those dreadful route marches with a fever at 38 degrees.That feeling is coming back,coming back to haunt me.

It's the way it is,when you havent been sick in a long time,once it strikes your body is caught off guard.It's must be the weather causing all the damn problems.Like the mood of an emotionally unstable girl,a bright sunny Sunday morning might be followed suddenly by a screaming rainstorm.Ten minutes later,the sun returns and everything is fine again.I'm the victim of the weather,and i even fell off the chair literally just now,while i fell asleep at the computer table.I even had to hold on to a pipe while i was bathing just to keep balance.As much as i love to sleep with this heavy head of mine,i hate to know that i need to sit down somewhere every hundred metres or so because i hate this feeling of being on the verge of a blackout.

This flu is eating me up,consuming me by the minute.I do feel a whole lot better,with lesser coughs and sneezes,but for some reason the dizziness is not going away.In fact,it has been getting worse in the past few days.I was coming up the stairs after dealing with some documents from Eddie,when i grabbed hold of the railings and felt the staircases falling away under my feet.I struggled into my bunk,took off my boots and collapsed onto my bed.It wasnt a "I want to sleep" kind of fall,but rather a collapse that felt more like a faint.That white light coming over me just before the black out,and i slept all the way till book out.As much as the feeling is fascinating,it is scaring me for real now.

I feel like i need a day of my holidays to sleep.Just sleep the whole day away.I need to stop abusing and punishing my body to crazy sleeping times and such.I need a good rest,something i havent had for a long time,now that i think of it.Sunday perhaps,i shall do that on Sunday.Just sleep the whole day away,make myself comfortable in bed and throw myself into the fantasy world of dreams.I'm not sure why,but the upcoming adventure of mine in my mind is exciting me in a very strange way.Come,Sunday come!