In Continuum.

To Those Concerned

I feel.

That the last post on this blog, was perhaps a little provocative for the taste of some. In fact, offended may be the word of choice, at the post or even the owner of this blog - myself. But I still feel, that this is my private space, and that I have the right to post what I feel on this private space of mine.

But at the same time.

I feel that you have every right to be upset as well. You have every right to be unhappy, to be infuriated, and everything else that ensued after your initial encounters.

I had a talk with your close friends today, the ones that matter to you, and we have cleared things out all within a short span of five minutes, just talking through the issue. I feel that it'd be great if you can sit down and talk with me, in the very same manner as I did with them. I do not wish to have this issue to blow up into proportions that neither of us can carry very well by our shoulders.

Despite the talk, I do wish to say that the blog is my way of putting out negative thoughts or energy within me, the kind of thoughts that may be tagged to certain individuals in school, or a certain negative event. In this case, you were the person that I was offended by, but at the same time I didn't want to harbor any of such vile thoughts about you. After all, I do remain to stay true to my status as the 'man on the side', and meddling with such social politics is probably the last thing I'd want to do. We have a long way to go together, being in the same environment. I don't suppose having such emotions and thoughts inside of my mind is going to help either of us live comfortably and happily ever after.

Thus, this is my way of putting things out there, to lay things out so that it will not come back to haunt me anymore. It'd be like listening to loud music to get rid of those negative energy, or how some many prefer to break vases at home, or thrash their rooms. I - blog, and I do realize that there are times whereby the person involved may come across materials that may offend them. I understand the consequences of my actions, and thus I am willing to sit down and explain myself through and through. This is my way of getting certain thoughts out of my system, so that I will not feel the same about you and harbor the same thoughts in our subsequent meetings. As much as you respected that this is my private space and has so kindly left no messages in retaliation, I hope that you give me a little more respect by understanding how I work as a person.

Like I said before, I have officially talked to the bunch of people that you are close to - the ones who also knows about this - and they have accepted and understood my situation - hopefully. I dearly hope that you will feel the same as them, after our eventual talk. However, if you are going to dissociate myself from you from hereafter, I am going to be understanding as well. After all, I have long accepted and came to terms with the consequences of my actions here on this blog, and I do realize that any rash entries may just offend multiple people involved. It is a choice that I do not wish you to make, but at the same time I am telling you that I understand. Nasty things were said on the entry, but it was my way of saying," Hey man, I really hate to think this way about you. So I am getting rid of these thoughts by blogging them all out." This is how I keep myself sane from the politics that exist in every inch of a human life, and this is the only way I can remain as the man on the side.

Thank you, for your kind understanding.