In Continuum.

Automated Defence Mechanism Part II: Erasure

Im pretty sure at this point,all readers are probably cursing the last entry,and then me for confusing the living ability to rationalise things out of them.Well,i shall apologize for that now,but you'd know my motive for a two part special this time.

I sort of came up with the last entry after sitting on the throne.By throne i am refering to the you-know-what.Anyway,i was thinking about the dream in the morning,and the impact in had on me.Of course,most people would dismiss it,and say that it is merely a dream.I guess like the more morbid of humans who are fascinated by death,i am in my own way fascinated by dreams,and it's indications in our daily lives.

I was thinking,about the line being blurred between the life you have in a dream and the life you have in reality.Picture it this way,you exist in two worlds.The world you are living in right now,reading this blog entry from the comfort of your home and probably a cup of hot chocolate next to you.The other life refers to the life you have in your head,the one that goes on mysterious adventures around your imaginations and unknown realms.Between these two lives,between these two worlds,is a line that divides the worlds from each other called "The Line of Rationality".

We first have to examine the difference between the world as we know we,and the world as we imagine it.The main difference,or rather the only difference is the fact that we can rationalise things in reality,but not in the dream world.Leaping off a building to escape from a crazed mad man with a knife is probably not the best idea to escape in real life,but in the dream world without the ability to rationalise things you take a jump off the ledge and you see the mad man grow smaller and smaller and finally,you are on the ground,safe and sound.

That is the main difference between the life we know,and the life we imagine.The rational ability we have in real life,is really what divides the two from each other.The above mentioned "Automated Defence Mechanism" is what keeps "The Line of Rationality" in check.The "Automated Defence Mechanism",or ADM in short,is what tells you real from fake.You wake up from a bloody nightmare,and you know that whatever happened in your brain wasnt real because ADM was being activated.You are now capable of rationalising real from fake,and you know that no hooded man chased you down a dark alley,or the fact that your sister didnt take a leap off the edge of your window sill.

Imagine your life without ADM,though.You'd wake up in bed,thinking that you were in fact,chased by a hooded man down a dark alley and start to scream hysterically,and uncontrollably.You'd think that your sister really did leap off your window sill,and you'd be searching the streets below for blood and body parts.ADM doesnt just work in dreams,but in real life as well.When a person snatches your purse,when you see a guy scratching your newly painted car,when you see a person in the monsoon drain drowning fast.ADM activates,you do whatever is necessary.

I was just thinking about how blind this system is.I mean,however beneficial this system is in our real life,there are things that happens in our dreams that sometimes,we just want to keep it that way,to cherish it.You know?

Naturally,waking up from a dream,your head tells you that whatever happened back then was a dream,they werent real.However much you want to keep that memory,your senses tell you that it was merely a dream,and it is as good as it gets.What if we have the ability to choose what kind of dream we want to keep,and what to be erased though.Wouldnt that be a dream come true,in a way?Literally?If we have the ability,if we have the capability to do so,to choose what is real and what isnt,then wouldnt all good dreams come into life,be real?

The system is blind,the way it erases and dismisses all dreams as...things that never happened in reality.If i could choose,between what to erase from my brain as being a dream,and what not to be erased and convince myself that that actually happened,then in a way wouldnt i have a whole new set of memories,added into my life?Wouldnt that be amazing?

I would keep the dream i had in the morning,and convince myself that it actually happened.That the system didnt delete it,dismiss it as a dream.It actually,happened.And we'd be happier,i'd be happier in real life,even if it was just an illusion,a bloody lie i live with.The willing to be stupid,the willingness to sacrifise for little happiness like that.That's me,and sue me for it.