In Continuum.

What is Complicated?

Tell those tiny chemicals
The ones you hold responsible
They lost me
You lost me

But everything inside me tells me i should run to you
And throw my arms around you
Hold your steaming crying cheeks against my own
And tell you nothing's wrong

But wrong is what you were when you forgot
That we were going on
We were going on
We were going on


Imagine yourself sitting in a bar,with the dim lights and a soft blues music in the background.It's Thursday night,and the crowd's still nowhere to be seen,as you shook the glass of Whiskey Coke in your hands,watching the ice cubes tumbling over one another.A guy comes up to you in a suit,well dressed and tidy looking.There's nothing too attractive about him,but probably a shame to place him under the "Average Joe" category,in your opinion.

You guys strike up a chat,and within ten minutes you guys are having a good conversation about how the day sucked at the job.Then,the inevitable question comes,and however you hate to hear this question,you knew that it's going to come sooner or later,some time between the moment you start talking with this person and the end of the night.

"So,are you attached?",he asked.He hesitated for awhile,not too sure of what you are supposed to reply to such a question.Theoretically speaking there are only two possible answers out there,and there in front of you this guy waits patiently for your answer.Without giving a definite answer,playing the safe card and being neutral,you replied,"It's complicated".

So just what the hell is the complication?If you are currently attached,seeing a person on a daily,if not often basis every weekend or weekday,and you call him a name,nobody else around him seems to know,then you are obviously attached.If you are living alone,hanging out with friends and just friends every other weekends,calling them up to bitch about a certain aspect of your life then,you are clearly single.Two simple answers to a question,and yet some of us,so many of us,are at times troubled by the answer we should give.What if a couple is arguing over something,or perhaps a person likes somebody and is being liked in returned,just not officially attached yet.What do you classify them as?You take a stand in the middle of the two,being attached and being single,and somebody somewhere in this world came up with this brilliant way of classifying these bunch people,unsure of their status."It's complicated".How brilliant.

I wonder what the implications are,when a couple,a normal looking couple,has their status on Friendster saying "It's Complicated",instead of the "In a Relationship" like before.Are they in a fight,are they quarreling,or does being complicated mean something totally different?Like,perhaps one of them was being proposed to or something,and you are unsure if you want to marry this guy or not.Doesnt that mean,or rather,isnt it a sort of complication as well?

The purpose of this post,really is to tell myself that perhaps i shouldnt get too excited just yet.You dont know shit,what the hell is happening between those two person in the first place.Even if it is the more optimistic(or rather morbid)possibility,it is not as if you are ever going to come into the picture.After all,it was she who erased me from her life and her from mine.We sort of,made a silent agreement somewhere between now and the last word we ever spoken to each other,that perhaps we should just delete the existence of each other and live life,even if it crumbles without each other.

What is my complication,if you ask me.Why do i have "It's Complicated" under my profile as well.Well,actually i dont really know.I find the title,or rather status of "It's Complicated" rather appealing.It's not like "Single" or "In a Relationship",a little too direct and straightforward.It gives space for guessing,i guess.Mysterious feel to your relationship with somebody,or nobody at all.Could it be,that she is in a way thinking the same way as myself?

This complication is rather complicated,indeed.