Emily Part III: Eternity
Friday, July 28, 2006
Emily Part III: Eternity
Emily tasted Tracy's saliva,as they exchanged kisses on the bedsheets.Emily laid on her back with her arms stretched out,and Tracy's head between her breasts now.She was panting,and so was Emily,as they listened to the sound from next door and the music below.They were muffled,like their minds right then,all was a blur.It was as if the world drowned under the music,the noise,the sex and everything that was between Emily and Tracy as they breathed love and lust into each other.
Is this how Sarah felt,Emily thought.Is this why she fell in love with Tracy in the first place?
Tracy burrowed her head into Emily's armpit then,and tickled her nipple until the both of them collapsed into each others' arms after a pillow fight.Emily was hysterical then,and the object in the purse,the object meant for Tracy,almost faded from her mind now halfway between the stratosphere and the moon.She leaned over the edge of the bed,and tried to reach for the purse,but was pulled back into bed by Tracy,who was then giggle uncontrollably.So this is why Sarah never loved me,Emily thought again.She felt Sarah inside of her then,almost controlling her emotions,taking over her thoughts.Under Tracy,as she crawled over her body,she felt Sarah's voice inside her head,ever so gentle and soft.
"Do you love me?" Emily asked,after yet another passionate kiss.
"Yes," Tracy replied. "Yes,i love you."
"Then why did you leave her?Why did you leave us?"
"What are you talking about?" Tracy replied,confused.She retreated from Emily now,with a frown between her carefully drawn eyebrows.
"Sarah,why did you leave Sarah?"
"You know her?" Tracy said,surprised."She got boring after a while.I mean,she was beautiful,and she was hot.Like,really hot.We couldnt get enough of each other actually.But she worn me down,like tires on tarmac,you know?I was so tired,the way she always reminds me of how fucked up i am.I hated it,i hated her,and almost everything she ever said about her,and about me.Just...everything."
"You loved her,too?"
"Loved,sure.Then i hated.She was fucked up,she fucked me up.It was a spurt of the moment thing,she got stale.Like mouldy bread.You wouldve hated her too,that bitch."
Emily crawled out of bed then.Naked and sweaty all over,she kneeled down under the bed and hooked out the purse with her middle finger.She took out the object,the object that was meant for Tracy.Tracy stared at it for a while,a wave of confusion swept across her mascara covered face.She stammered,and as she kicked her way across the bed she fell off the edge and sprawled on the floor.
Emily circled around the bed now,the object still in her hand.Tracy screamed,and she screamed so loud then.But her voice was drowned out by the music below,the sound of party-goers struggling to melt into each other.She retreated into the corner then,helpess,and her arms over her face still screaming.
"You are wrong," Emily said between her teeth. "I loved her..."
"I loved her",were Sarah's last words in that hospital room,before Emily dashed down the hallway,with a handkerchief in her face.She tasted her tears,still salty,and her nose felt sour as she crashed through the doors of the stairwell and brokedown.
Emily was shattered,when Sarah smoothened her hair and wiped away her tears back in the room only minutes ago.The object was in her hands,and she told her she was grateful of her gift.But however precious it was,her love belonged to Tracy.Tracy,of all people,Tracy.
"Why?" Emily asked,still crying. "But why?"
"Because,love is destructive,as it is stupid."
"How is that possible,Sarah?You,of all people!You were strong!So strong!"
"Don't cheapen my love for her,Emily my dearest.You loved me,and i knew it.But my heart belongs to someone else,and that is something neither you,nor i can change.We all have our hearts to follow,dont we?"
"And what of this gift?" Emily said,pointed at the object,bewildered and eccentric now."Dont you remember?Dont you remember?"
"Let this be,the token of our parting my love.This is a fullstop,the end of a phase and the beginning of another,one i must walk alone and you should not follow."
"What are you talking about,Sarah?"
"I tried to kill myself for myself,and not anybody else.Because i knew,that there is only one place my love shall remain."
"What is love,when it is in that place then?"
"Eternity."
To be continued...
Emily tasted Tracy's saliva,as they exchanged kisses on the bedsheets.Emily laid on her back with her arms stretched out,and Tracy's head between her breasts now.She was panting,and so was Emily,as they listened to the sound from next door and the music below.They were muffled,like their minds right then,all was a blur.It was as if the world drowned under the music,the noise,the sex and everything that was between Emily and Tracy as they breathed love and lust into each other.
Is this how Sarah felt,Emily thought.Is this why she fell in love with Tracy in the first place?
Tracy burrowed her head into Emily's armpit then,and tickled her nipple until the both of them collapsed into each others' arms after a pillow fight.Emily was hysterical then,and the object in the purse,the object meant for Tracy,almost faded from her mind now halfway between the stratosphere and the moon.She leaned over the edge of the bed,and tried to reach for the purse,but was pulled back into bed by Tracy,who was then giggle uncontrollably.So this is why Sarah never loved me,Emily thought again.She felt Sarah inside of her then,almost controlling her emotions,taking over her thoughts.Under Tracy,as she crawled over her body,she felt Sarah's voice inside her head,ever so gentle and soft.
"Do you love me?" Emily asked,after yet another passionate kiss.
"Yes," Tracy replied. "Yes,i love you."
"Then why did you leave her?Why did you leave us?"
"What are you talking about?" Tracy replied,confused.She retreated from Emily now,with a frown between her carefully drawn eyebrows.
"Sarah,why did you leave Sarah?"
"You know her?" Tracy said,surprised."She got boring after a while.I mean,she was beautiful,and she was hot.Like,really hot.We couldnt get enough of each other actually.But she worn me down,like tires on tarmac,you know?I was so tired,the way she always reminds me of how fucked up i am.I hated it,i hated her,and almost everything she ever said about her,and about me.Just...everything."
"You loved her,too?"
"Loved,sure.Then i hated.She was fucked up,she fucked me up.It was a spurt of the moment thing,she got stale.Like mouldy bread.You wouldve hated her too,that bitch."
Emily crawled out of bed then.Naked and sweaty all over,she kneeled down under the bed and hooked out the purse with her middle finger.She took out the object,the object that was meant for Tracy.Tracy stared at it for a while,a wave of confusion swept across her mascara covered face.She stammered,and as she kicked her way across the bed she fell off the edge and sprawled on the floor.
Emily circled around the bed now,the object still in her hand.Tracy screamed,and she screamed so loud then.But her voice was drowned out by the music below,the sound of party-goers struggling to melt into each other.She retreated into the corner then,helpess,and her arms over her face still screaming.
"You are wrong," Emily said between her teeth. "I loved her..."
"I loved her",were Sarah's last words in that hospital room,before Emily dashed down the hallway,with a handkerchief in her face.She tasted her tears,still salty,and her nose felt sour as she crashed through the doors of the stairwell and brokedown.
Emily was shattered,when Sarah smoothened her hair and wiped away her tears back in the room only minutes ago.The object was in her hands,and she told her she was grateful of her gift.But however precious it was,her love belonged to Tracy.Tracy,of all people,Tracy.
"Why?" Emily asked,still crying. "But why?"
"Because,love is destructive,as it is stupid."
"How is that possible,Sarah?You,of all people!You were strong!So strong!"
"Don't cheapen my love for her,Emily my dearest.You loved me,and i knew it.But my heart belongs to someone else,and that is something neither you,nor i can change.We all have our hearts to follow,dont we?"
"And what of this gift?" Emily said,pointed at the object,bewildered and eccentric now."Dont you remember?Dont you remember?"
"Let this be,the token of our parting my love.This is a fullstop,the end of a phase and the beginning of another,one i must walk alone and you should not follow."
"What are you talking about,Sarah?"
"I tried to kill myself for myself,and not anybody else.Because i knew,that there is only one place my love shall remain."
"What is love,when it is in that place then?"
"Eternity."
To be continued...
This entry was posted
on Friday, July 28, 2006 at 10:29 PM.
You can skip to the end and leave a response.
