Digame
Monday, January 30, 2006
Digame
I dont understand we humans,how we can say things for the sake of saying things.I cant say that i am totally innocent when it comes to that aspect,but it's just in us sometimes,how we say things for the sake of saying it and not thinking the meaning behind it,or how the "meaninglessness" can hurt people sometimes.People here,actually refers to a person: Me.
Before i elaborate any further,let's talk about words or phrase people actually use recklessly,in our every day lives.Here are some examples i thought of a while ago,so here they are.
"I am never ever going to be with that girl,no way in hell."
"I will do anything for you,anything and everything."
"This is it,i am never going to speak to you,ever again.Forever."
"I hate you."
(The most commonly misunderstood and misused)
"I love you."
We hear such phrase all the time,but we dont really ponder over them all so often.I remember blogging about this in my old blog,how people use big words like "Hate" or "Love" like punctuations in a sentence.Like,they are supposed to be there or something.Do people actually mean it when they say such things?Do you know how much it actually hurts to know that you never really meant it,and that you said it because at that moment in time,it just sounded right.
When you say "I will do anything for you",are you physically going to block a bullet for her,kill yourself for her,or get the stars in the sky for her?Let's admit it,it's all too poetic to be true.It sounds romantic,yes when you are at the beach with your girl staring up into the sky looking for constellations,and you tell her that you get one for her someday.Are you going to,really?Someday,never.Unless you never meant it literally,or else you might want to consider getting yourself employed at NASA and fly to the moon.
Or when you argue with your boyfriend,and you tell him our of pure frustration and anger that you never want to see him again.Forever,and ever and ever.Did you really mean that?How would you know that,sometimes in life,when you really need that somebody to talk to,that you wouldnt want to see him again even in that devastated state of mind?
The truth is ladies and gentlemen,is that people dont think about the stuff they say anymore.I guess that's something that has been a crime,committed ages ago at the beginning of time.It's not something that came out of a generation,but a species i think.It just hurts,you know?To realise that what somebody said to you never really meant anything.
Back to my story,i was talking to you.I dont know why,i apologise.I know we had an agreement never to talk to each other,but i cant help it.This silence isnt working for me,perhaps better for you.I cant stand the fact that you are online on my contact list,while i am there staring blankly at a conversation window,with a cursor flashing for the past half an hour.I.Cant.Do.It.
"I have to go downstairs now,talk to you soon?"
Or,are you?
Seriously,you are never going to do that anytime soon.When was the last time you messaged me out of...nothing?When you just wanted to talk,like we used to.When was the last time you felt bored and wanted to talk to me,for nostalgia's sake?Never.Never since that fateful day in camp on my bed,when i cried soft in my covers.Really,i did.And you know what hurts more?Hurt itself.
Hurt hurts.It really does.
I dont know why i am feeling so emotional over a single phrase you said.Perhaps you never meant it to be so...meaningless.So empty in a way.So unpromising.I dont want to hear such words or phrases ever again,i am just so tired of them.How they never will come true.You will never talk to me,like you mentioned.It's always me,talking to you.Never the other way round.This is not one of those chemical reactions,no vice versa going on here.This is a one way trip,and i am doing all the walking.
Tell me things,things that are...real.Things that will actually come true.In fact,i think i will feel much better if you had said,"Hey,i got to go now.Message me when you want to talk again,okay?"
Sure,that wouldve been nice.At least the decision to talk lies on me,and that you are not making any empty promises whatever.Tell me,there are still possibilities,or nothing at all.Dont give me this,hope.This possibility,this promise that will never come true.You know,and i know that it will never be.So why the hell still talk the way you do,all wistful and cheerful.Am i asking for too much,though.Just say something real,for once.For just that pathetic once.
Digame.Digame.Digame.
On the ground
With my world
Upside down
I got a vision of your face
And I must get me out
For so many memories we've yet to make
God don't send to me your angels
I just wanna hear you say again
Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
If I go
I'll know
"Forever Love(Digame)" by Anna Nalick
I dont understand we humans,how we can say things for the sake of saying things.I cant say that i am totally innocent when it comes to that aspect,but it's just in us sometimes,how we say things for the sake of saying it and not thinking the meaning behind it,or how the "meaninglessness" can hurt people sometimes.People here,actually refers to a person: Me.
Before i elaborate any further,let's talk about words or phrase people actually use recklessly,in our every day lives.Here are some examples i thought of a while ago,so here they are.
"I am never ever going to be with that girl,no way in hell."
"I will do anything for you,anything and everything."
"This is it,i am never going to speak to you,ever again.Forever."
"I hate you."
(The most commonly misunderstood and misused)
"I love you."
We hear such phrase all the time,but we dont really ponder over them all so often.I remember blogging about this in my old blog,how people use big words like "Hate" or "Love" like punctuations in a sentence.Like,they are supposed to be there or something.Do people actually mean it when they say such things?Do you know how much it actually hurts to know that you never really meant it,and that you said it because at that moment in time,it just sounded right.
When you say "I will do anything for you",are you physically going to block a bullet for her,kill yourself for her,or get the stars in the sky for her?Let's admit it,it's all too poetic to be true.It sounds romantic,yes when you are at the beach with your girl staring up into the sky looking for constellations,and you tell her that you get one for her someday.Are you going to,really?Someday,never.Unless you never meant it literally,or else you might want to consider getting yourself employed at NASA and fly to the moon.
Or when you argue with your boyfriend,and you tell him our of pure frustration and anger that you never want to see him again.Forever,and ever and ever.Did you really mean that?How would you know that,sometimes in life,when you really need that somebody to talk to,that you wouldnt want to see him again even in that devastated state of mind?
The truth is ladies and gentlemen,is that people dont think about the stuff they say anymore.I guess that's something that has been a crime,committed ages ago at the beginning of time.It's not something that came out of a generation,but a species i think.It just hurts,you know?To realise that what somebody said to you never really meant anything.
Back to my story,i was talking to you.I dont know why,i apologise.I know we had an agreement never to talk to each other,but i cant help it.This silence isnt working for me,perhaps better for you.I cant stand the fact that you are online on my contact list,while i am there staring blankly at a conversation window,with a cursor flashing for the past half an hour.I.Cant.Do.It.
"I have to go downstairs now,talk to you soon?"
Or,are you?
Seriously,you are never going to do that anytime soon.When was the last time you messaged me out of...nothing?When you just wanted to talk,like we used to.When was the last time you felt bored and wanted to talk to me,for nostalgia's sake?Never.Never since that fateful day in camp on my bed,when i cried soft in my covers.Really,i did.And you know what hurts more?Hurt itself.
Hurt hurts.It really does.
I dont know why i am feeling so emotional over a single phrase you said.Perhaps you never meant it to be so...meaningless.So empty in a way.So unpromising.I dont want to hear such words or phrases ever again,i am just so tired of them.How they never will come true.You will never talk to me,like you mentioned.It's always me,talking to you.Never the other way round.This is not one of those chemical reactions,no vice versa going on here.This is a one way trip,and i am doing all the walking.
Tell me things,things that are...real.Things that will actually come true.In fact,i think i will feel much better if you had said,"Hey,i got to go now.Message me when you want to talk again,okay?"
Sure,that wouldve been nice.At least the decision to talk lies on me,and that you are not making any empty promises whatever.Tell me,there are still possibilities,or nothing at all.Dont give me this,hope.This possibility,this promise that will never come true.You know,and i know that it will never be.So why the hell still talk the way you do,all wistful and cheerful.Am i asking for too much,though.Just say something real,for once.For just that pathetic once.
Digame.Digame.Digame.
On the ground
With my world
Upside down
I got a vision of your face
And I must get me out
For so many memories we've yet to make
God don't send to me your angels
I just wanna hear you say again
Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
If I go
I'll know
"Forever Love(Digame)" by Anna Nalick
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